‘I Deserved To Miscarry’ (No You Didn'T)
There’s a stage of grief in miscarriage which may involve guilt. Even though I was the male counterpart in three miscarriages, I always wondered if something I did was responsible, either in terms of my physical input (flawed sperm due to not looking after my body correctly) or even something more personal- perhaps I’d been a “bad” person and that had caused the foetus to bail out. It’s such a traumatic time that morally, rationally and physically questions without answers may be asked.
Take the British TV actress, Christian background, a sense of guilt over previous actions may be overwhelming in a situation like a miscarriage, a situation which is beyond one’s ability to control, and therefore in “God’s hands”. The guilt may lead to the sense that this loss is punishment for sins or thoughts- if the pregnancy is extra-marital, or if the woman had an abortion, or even if the mom had had doubts about having a baby, for example. Sometimes one may even feel guilty about certain foods consumed or that glass of wine or an fitness routine- what if those were responsible? What if...
Whether or not you follow a Christian tradition, it’s important to acknowledge that guilt for “losing” a baby may occur after a miscarriage. The sense of “what did I do wrong?” is hard to suppress. If you are the male partner, it’s vital that you provide support to your female partner and that you downplay these guilty feelings.
These are the stages of grief, according to Elizabeth Kubler Ross (although they may not all be experienced):